the way elsa covers her mouth when she laughs with anna (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧✧
feasting, celebrating the festive new year and the many recent incidents of late has made me realized how dependent i should be on Him.
it’s always something that i struggle with in general - but i’m no Xena and i admit i’m still trying to deal with the truth of that.
i need to learn to boast in my weaknesses because that’s when He is revealed.
i am imperfect, blemished, broken, impure and undeserving of all that He has to give me and has already given me.
it’s hard to throw yourself like a piece of raw meat openly to a pack of hungry wolves; just waiting and watching to tear you apart.
and so it’s hard to give anyone the chance to beat you down.
another matter that has troubled me as of late; i find it particularly flustering trying to find the balance between standing up for yourself and leaving Him to seek justice for me.
but as i have discovered, the habit of standing up for myself and to letting others ‘take advantage’ of my offering of kindness is slightly addictive - yet didn’t it say:
New International Version (NIV)
28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back.
so then how does that work? when does a person say no?
in western countries, knowing your rights and fighting for them are incredibly important and i’m starting to question if this is really just another worldly practice more than the simple underlying notion of applying justice into our daily lives.
what is the borderline to which one can avoid conforming to worldly practices?
and my mind is racing with questions that i cannot answer - is there a right answer, in any case?
all in all, guide me Lord, and help me through this path of unanswered questions that they may not waver me from the truth that has come to set all free.
there are things to be thankful for nonetheless, and i am particularly grateful for the recent blessings in conversations between the boy and i. we had a short but meaningful exchange of heartfelt truths - and though it may be a small issue that we regarded, i can say we managed to admit some of the many faults we have and regarded it calmly. i felt like we understood each other a little bit more and really, there’s no one else i can thank more than You. what could we have done without You? i don’t think we would have made it that far. thanks for hearing my prayers ♥ (:
not to mention, being able to celebrate the new year with so many friends - honestly, i should count my blessings more often. thank You, Lord. You are truly benevolent, loving and filled with grace - lead and help me to be more like You each day ♥ (:
It’s cold, and it’s horse year, so here’s a snowman and a horse.
Happy Chinese New Year to you all! And stay warm. ♥
people who can do this are jesus